Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in rae's LiveJournal:

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Tuesday, May 20th, 2008
6:14 pm	i made a new journal. i may not end up using. gonna try. add it up though: murdatramp ps: today is 100 days clean for me. glimpsed the foreboding end.
Sunday, December 3rd, 2006
10:59 pm	i got my new car finally my dad picked me, my sister, and andy up to go get it yesterdsay. he left his pupils at home. the ride was...interesting to say the least. then we stayed in an apartment full of hippies in new haven, who took us to see a clockwork orange and my pal dubra came too. a random black man gave me and my sister candy, then we ran and fell down... then ran and fell down.. then ran and fell down again. my cousin gave us an unreasonable amount of free coffee and everybody who wasn't overcaffeinated to an extreme suffered in our presence. 1 Unicorn glimpsed the foreboding end.
Monday, November 13th, 2006
1:09 pm	does anyone have the fri norwich bulletin? i lost it and the article about my crash is no longer online. i wanted to send it to my dad 2 Unicorns glimpsed the foreboding end.
Saturday, November 11th, 2006
12:50 pm	i'm in the paper 2 Unicorns glimpsed the foreboding end.
Friday, November 10th, 2006
8:27 am	this is life in a car crash. so yesterday i was driving the audi to pick up the sister in middletown, and between exits 87 and exit 86 i was in the right lane and a black suv in the left lane went to move into the lane without looking and was steering straight into me, so i tried to steer away and lost control, spun into the guardrail, then continued spinning to some distance up the highway, on the other side. when the car stopped, the airbags went off and the car was on fire. next i knew, i heard yelling "GET OUT OF THE CAR! GET OUT OF THE CAR!" and 2 army guys pulled me from the burning car and got me to the other side of the highway and called 911 and stayed with me til they talked to the police and i was with the ambulance. Current Mood: shocked Current Music: hole - doll parts 4 Unicorns glimpsed the foreboding end.
Thursday, November 9th, 2006
8:20 pm	my day in pictures maybe words will follow when i feel up to writing abou tit Current Mood: shocked 2 Unicorns glimpsed the foreboding end.
10:32 am	my pal murph won less harsh penalties for drug dealers woot addicts everywhere rejoice 4 Unicorns glimpsed the foreboding end.
Thursday, November 2nd, 2006
5:48 pm	"Cocaine is like really evil coffee." i love courtney love. "I used to do drugs, but don't tell anyone or it will ruin my image". "Being offended is part of being in the real world." "We went through ten years of the Limp Bizkit thing, and I didn't know what to do." "You know, I am cool. I just am." Current Mood: amused 1 Unicorn glimpsed the foreboding end.
Wednesday, November 1st, 2006
12:42 pm	i hope everyone had a good rape-oween i'm sorry/you're welcome to anyone who was with me last night, depending on whether i made you extremely uncomfortable or.... you enjoyed things. ummmmm so lesson learned, rae is a classy ho with a chanel bellyring. and no matter how big the bottle of vodka, rae will try to drink as much of it as possible until someone hides it really good. another lesson, if you are going to be locked in a basement all day after drinking alot, you should really go pee first. and my definition of what constitutes all day differs from most, because i don't sleep. and if you want to be doing something with someone and loud conversations about harry potter and the mention of nate is distracting to you, you should probably not have heidi present. also, its good to have some light reading available, but the book titled "supersex" is for noobs, and has words in it that me and emily don't understand... what is this "relationship" and "love" thing they speak of? and people need to be around when we read because our commentary is incredible. glimpsed the foreboding end.
Monday, October 30th, 2006
11:41 pm	cat ears and cheap vodka, a halloween tradition i can't wait glimpsed the foreboding end.
Sunday, October 22nd, 2006
3:29 pm	i hate my car i have a very stronmg instinct to run and i can't do it either literally by getting in the car and going or by doing drugs cuz i dont have very much in that dept, or the money dept, or the wokring car dept. i feel so trapped, i cant take it. and i found out the wanting me to be home early and not do much exciting is an effort to keep me from becoming manic and its too late and i dont know why they think suicidally depressed is such a better option. just let me goooooooooooooo. i like being manic better. it annoys the crap out of eveyone around me for sure but im having fun atleast i wanna run free and i want my own bathroom. i feel sick Current Mood: nauseated Current Music: pixies glimpsed the foreboding end.
Tuesday, October 17th, 2006
9:53 pm	today was like traumatic 2 Unicorns glimpsed the foreboding end.
2:12 am	dont smoke pot Side effects: For many, smoking dope is as natural and everyday as a brew of hot tea, and they find the drug helps make their life a little less stressful without unduly affecting their judgement or abilities. For others it can have quite the opposite effect, turning ordinary folk into unbearable, spaced out, lazy hippies. A night of industrial strength spliffing can transform you into a giggling oaf who will burst into laughter at wholly unamusing incidents and find deep intellectual depth in the Spice Girls' lyrics. Your trousers and sofa will become riddled with burn marks from dropped spliffs, and you will have to face the regular dilemma of being hit with the munchies at 3am only to find that you were too out of it to get the shopping in. This can result in regular users turning into lazy gits whose crap diet turns their body into a most unattractive proposition. http://www.urban75.com/Drugs Current Mood: impressed 1 Unicorn glimpsed the foreboding end.
1:35 am	i'm UNIQUE HowManyOfMe.com There are: 0 people with my name in the U.S.A. How many have your name? who is going to see msi the 30th this is important and what the FUCK is going on my life is the most confusing thing i ever met and i am have chest pain but it is not plueritic givememorphinenow i came up with a new years resolution already aren't you all proud Current Mood: weird glimpsed the foreboding end.
Thursday, October 12th, 2006
5:45 pm	the cough medicine curmudgeon lately weird random memories have been coming back to me i just remembered being 13, and wondering why my dad was drinking a bottle of robitussin when i was fairly certain he didn't have a cold and that a whole bottle wasn't the correct dosage.... hahahahahaha ishfsdhfi sg shdfrobotripping... Current Mood: nostalgic 1 Unicorn glimpsed the foreboding end.
Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
1:39 am	Your dating personality profile: Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life. Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about her appearance. Sensual - You are not particularly shy when it comes to your sexuality. You know what you like and do not feel inhibited. Your date match profile: Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things. Outgoing - Shy and timid people are not who you are after. You need someone with a vibrant personality to breathe life into a relationship. Stylish - You cannot put up with someone who is lacking in style. You want an original, someone with flare, someone with good taste. Your Top Ten Traits 1. Adventurous 2. Stylish 3. Sensual 4. Liberal 5. Shy 6. Big-Hearted 7. Traditional 8. Wealthy/Ambitious 9. Funny 10. Romantic Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Adventurous 2. Outgoing 3. Stylish 4. Funny 5. Big-Hearted 6. Wealthy/Ambitious 7. Sensual 8. Practical 9. Intellectual 10. Traditional Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions haha omg i want the exact same person as me 9 Unicorns glimpsed the foreboding end.
Tuesday, October 10th, 2006
11:29 pm	allison at the zoo http://s36.photobucket.com/albums/e23/raebeth/?action=view¤t=MOV01815.flv glimpsed the foreboding end.
Monday, October 9th, 2006
10:00 pm	bonding me and ryan just bonded over an obscure method of killing someone. is that weird? we could tell you what one, but then we'd have to kill you. and we already have the plan. Current Mood: amused 4 Unicorns glimpsed the foreboding end.
7:16 pm	nother day at work so today was a fun day at work. i had to be there 630 am again. i started in medic 1 which i was happy about because yesterday i was in medic 2, which is a horrible little van and it sucked being stuck in the back of all day. after a call or two i got switched back to medic 2 and i wasn't pleased but it was just til the paramedic came with the fly car, and i was gonna be in the fly car the rest of the day. the fly car is a police cruiser that the paramedic uses so that he can go to whatever ambulance needs him without bringing a whole other ambulance, its much much comfier than an ambulance to have to sit in for hours. and idiots who cant read mistake you for cops and its a little bit entertaining. i was reading my nicole richie book and alan (the paramedic) was looking at some car buying guide, and this woman runs over freaking out like THERE ARE CHILDREN OVER THERE PLAYING WITH ACORNS! they are THROWING THEM!!!!! SOMEBODY IS GOING TO GET HURT! THEY'RE GOING TO BREAK THE SCHOOL WINDOWS WITH THE ACORNS THEY ARE TOSSING AT EACHOTHER!!!!! and we just like both went "mmhmmm...." and went back to reading, and then she left and we were like WHAT THE FUCK?!?!. windsor pd is now probably like, gonna get complaints about the cops who wouldn't put a stop to the dangerous acorn-tossing childrens' reign of terror... even though like, the car says PARAMEDIC all over, our shirts said WINDSOR EMS in big yellow letters, and i definatley dont look old enough to be a cop, and no cop on earth would care about kids playing with acorns near windows and bystanders. how in the hell is a small child going to break through a school window with a little nut? how much would people love EMS if they all went around screaming at children for playing with acorns ahahha. so like, it was really hot so we drove around to get some air going through the car and made jokes about police and acorns and shit, then we got the "unconcious fallen person" call and got there and there were 2 ambulances crews and 3 cops in this person's living room and there was like blood all over a table and the carpet and this guy was laying on the floor gurgling up blood. when it was time to get going to the hospital, i was supposed to go in the second ambulance with one guy and another was supposed to drive the fly car, and everybody else there was needed in the first ambulance cuz he was in such bad shape and needed so much. in the confusion, the guy who was supposed to drive the fly car ended up leaving with the first ambulance, leaving me and one other person, the fly car, and an ambulance, so like there was no choice but for me to drive the fly car, which i didnt complain about at all. there wasnt any handles or buttons to adjust the seat, so i had to drive this police cruiser all gangsta. i could reach the pedals fine but the seat was a little too far back, and the back of the seat was back a bit too far, so i was like leaning really far back and had my arm out straight to hold the wheel from far back... jkhshf ahahahha ilovedrivingthatthingeventhoughi'mprobablyreallynotsupposedto an annoying part of the day though, i was done at 2 but they needed some people to stick around so i said i'd stay awhile, and i called and told my mom i was, then a couple hours later my stepdad called liek ARE YOU EVER COMING HOME??? osigssiogos stfu this is YOUR job, and you say you're sticking around a few minutes and come home hours later ON THE DAILY. then i came home and there was no food or money, so like, i had to use my debit card and spend what little i have left in the bank after putting gas in the stepdad's car for 2 days as well as my own car on stuff for him and my brother to make burgers and ham sandwiches?? i was like... is this a joke... but it wasnt. Current Mood: hyper 3 Unicorns glimpsed the foreboding end.
Sunday, October 8th, 2006
10:02 pm	its a long one i never update my lj because either theres nothing to write about it, or there is something to write about but i'm like i'm too lazy tonight, i'll do it tomorrow, then more stuff happens and i'm too tired to update.. then theres just too much to make a reasonably short entry, and i don't make one cuz if i did people would see alot of words and skip over it. but i'm gonna write one anyway. long or not. don't read it. whatev. at this point i am realizing once again that i cant remember anything that happens and i rely alot on reading old lj entries to find out what i was doing and what i was thinking at a given time. only this time, some memories i would like to keep. like, i'm forgetting already. half the stuff i want to write about, i can't remember much of. but i know that i was feeling really shitty and now i'm not, so these things will be written about, however incomplete. ( soimwritingshutupanddeal ) Current Mood: good 6 Unicorns glimpsed the foreboding end.